It’s that time again. That time where I’m not exactly sure why I feel the need to write about this publicly but I do it anyway. Yeah… the time has come.
So, here we go.
I have crazy anxiety. Seriously… it’s completely ridiculous. It never really happens when I’m out an about… usually just when I’m by myself, overly tired, hungry (like blood sugar is low hungry) and sick.
It’s one of those things that I haven’t always had and I’m constantly trying to figure out how to deal with it. It’s such a strange thing, to be lying in bed ready to go to sleep and have your heart start pounding out of nowhere. Of course then sends you into a full on anxiety attack and then you feel like a crazy person.
Well, here is what I’m learning from Mr. Anxiety…
I’m learning that it is VERY scary. I used to not understand when people told me that things gave them anxiety, and now I get it. It’s a big deal. It sucks. It’s consuming. I get it.
It’s not something you can just “get over”… I’m 100% a believer of Jesus Christ and let me tell you… when I try to pray through attacks it almost gets worse. That will never get me to stop asking the Lord for His help… but yeah, it’s definitely something that is very tricky.
It’s something that you don’t understand. I have NO idea what triggers my anxiety. None. At all. It’s super bizarre and you know what? That’s okay. I’ll figure it out eventually, God willing.
So I guess my point is this… be aware of people and the things that make them sensitive. You never know what people are really going through and what sends them into a weird place. Have grace with them. PRAY for them… and most importantly love them.
It makes all the difference in the world.
So despite having this ridiculous anxiety I still choose joy and peace. The joy and peace that I only can have from my loving Father and for that I am grateful.
I’m just trying to take things day by day. Do the best I can and be okay with not being able to be “strong” sometimes. I’m only human after all. ;-)
Thanks for letting me rant internet, I feel better. ;-)